Okay so, usually i have some twisted, yet strangely intelligent blog about the lowest points in life. But today, the negativity has dissapeared, and although i still have a lot to worry about, and even more to be upset about, somehow i've let it fade into the background and have let myself really shine. Of course it won't last, never does. The roller coaster of emotions is something i've gotten quite use too. But this time, it feels different. This time, i know it hurts, and i know it's killing me to see it all happen this way, but for some reason, i know i deserve better, and for once, i'm telling myself i deserve happiness. I deserve to have fun, and not have to worry for once about the outcome of this, or what's going to happen tomorrow, or this weekend, i can just be. i can just live, and make memories, that don't consist of tears, and heartache. i can enjoy the fact that i still, am just 18, and although the media makes it seem like we have this expectation in high school, to have huge depressing story lines of lives, i am still just a kid. and i can still just have fun and live without the fear of regret. I'm feeling so on top of the world for once, and it feels AMAZING. i don't even really know how it came about. i mean, i know it was just a breaking moment where you switch from one extreme to another. i'm guessing it's not a roller coaster, but more of a circle. you slowly build up until you're about to break, then you cross the path you first started at. and you're on the other side. And then the cycle continues.
Not the best of mine, but we can't all be wallowing in depression all the time. I'm glad my time's finally up, at least for now.
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